hyp·o·crite
noun \ˈhi-pə-ˌkrit\Definition of HYPOCRITE
1: a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion
2: a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings
3: Jennifer Mansfield
Honestly. I have some strong beliefs. And honestly, not even about politics or religion - more in line with goat cheese and cider and tv shows and the best inspirational quote. I voice my beliefs as often as I have the chance. Welcomed and not welcomed. I'm an advocate of being an authentic person. Someone who is who they are - always.
I have a certain co-worker who is just contagiously negative - it legitimately bothers me beyond an everyday annoyance. I'm personally offended at the comments he makes about others that I feel are unjust. The problem I have with this set of emotions is that I'm just as contagiously negative about OTHER co-workers and other issues within the office (since that's the space I'm speaking about at the moment). There are certain people I work with who I can't watch walk by my office door without a rage chill (just made that up).
Point is - I don't like having or sharing the feelings that when coming from others are so offensive. I don't want to be the girl on the high horse looking down and encouraging others to challenge themselves to be more positive when I refuse. I try, I do. But I fail...miserably.
I remember hearing, so long ago, that the things that bother you about others are the things you dislike most about yourself. I truly believe that because I constantly feel like a hypocrite.
Challenging myself more consciously to be tackling those emotions that bother me in others. I think it will be a good growth opportunity.
Any suggestions? Because honestly, as badly as I want to be successful at this, each time I've tried I feel as though I'm not being authentic and that is important to me...to the core. The most important.
Am I authentically destined to be a hypocrite that embraces and embodies all of the things that I dislike so much in others?
Let's hope not...
Rage chill. I like it. I will be using it.
ReplyDeleteWhen I do something that I don't like in other people, I think "well that sucks" and then I say "stop it" or "I shouldn't have been so hard on that person." Stop it for when what I'm doing doesn't feel authentically me, and I shouldn't have been so hard on that person when what I'm doing DOES feel authentic to me - be it good, bad, or ugly. Being authentic means acknowledging our scabby, ugly parts too I think.